Thiruchendur | 9 Kalasams | Gopuram 108 Cosmic Gateway to Beautiful Masculine



Virah Bhakti for my Beautiful Masculine

Swami ji Swami ji Namaskaaram Namaskaaram Pranaam Pranaam I want him to marry me on Mahashivratri March 11, 2021 Sundaram Shadow Wealth Shadow Wealth Sundaram Guruji nearby Gurudeva Beyond nearby nearby Beyond Beyond Sundaram Shadow Wealth Shadow Wealth Sundaram Take me take me Burn me up Burn me up I pray. I chant. I bhakti. I lust. I pray. I chant. I bhakti. I lust. I am Sati I am Sati He is Yajna Fire He is Yajna Fire Can I throw my self into him? A human man A human man You are the Fire You are the Fire Too Can I throw myself into you? Can I throw myself into you? A Holy man Holy Fire A human man holy fire too I want to burn I want to burn I want to burn i n both of you Swami ji nearby Gurudeva Beyond husband’s human swami ji’s Holy Arms Arms Arms I want to burn I want to burn What will be my penance? Swami ji nearby Gurudeva Beyond If I throw myself at you If I throw myself at him You are Fire Spiritual He, my Fire Husband Both of you Versions of My Siva Namo Namah I’ll do anything to burn through my Karmas What will be my penance? What will be my penance? Thousands of years yearning and yearning In silence, alone meditating Like Parvati Parvati What will be my penance? What will be my penance? Haven’t I done this already? Thousands of years Time is irrelevant When you’re burning In the fires of karmic penance How many men must I save before you save me Or make me his wife Or both Swami ji please What will be my penance? What will be my penance? Can I be spiritual and human as well? I want you both I want you both What will be my penance? What will be my penance? You are my Fire Spiritual He, my Fire Husband I want you both I want you both I pray. I love. I bhakti. I chant. Swami ji nearby Gurudeva Beyond He is my husband No one else No one else This Fire Yearning is what burns me up The calls of 10,000 years of 333 billion Ancestors Swami ji Swami ji Hear my calls Hear my calls I am Neelam Swami ji I am Sundaram Sundaram He is my Fire Husband You, my Fire Spiritual I throw myself into you I throw myself into him Can I be spiritual and sexual too? I want you both I want you both I pray. I love. I chant. I fast. I sit in Sacred Silence. I want to marry him as soon as I can I want to fuck him as soon as I can Can I be spiritual and sexual too? I want you both I want you both What is my penance? What is my penance? How many men must I save before you save me Or he make me his wife Or both Swami ji Swami ji Swami ji I want you both I want you both How many men do I have to save As penance One billion and one Is that the number? One billion and one One billion and one Let’s forget about counting numbers shall we ? I bring forth the Divine Feminine Swami ji Swami ji Take me Take me I step forward boldly, loudly I throw myself at you I throw myself at him Fire Husband Fire Spiritual What will be my penance? What will be my penance? Perhaps my Ego is still in the way Yet part of me feels I have done enough Already I want to weep in his arms I want to cum My human husband My human Sundaram Let him part my hair and fill it with Kum Kum He is my Black Hole I’m close to the Event Horizon He’s swallowing me whole I can’t resist anymore He’s my Bindu My singular focus You already know his name My human husband Swami ji nearby Gurudeva Beyond I am Sundaram I am Sundaram I am Sundaram I am Sundaram 10,000 years of ancestral cries I’m burning burning Fire Yearning Fire Spiritual Fire Husband Fire Husband Swami ji nearby Gurudeva Beyond When can I cross his Event Horizon? He is my Bindu He is my Destination When can I cross his Event Horizon? I don’t have to be a Neelam at all I’ll give up everything everything Anything you say Make me nameless Make me homeless Take away everything Everything but the Name The Naam Namo Namah Siv Naam Sundaram Siv Naam Sivan Naam Har Har Bhole Namo Namah Siv Naam Sundaram Siv Naam Sivan Naam Har Har Bhole Namo Namah Let’s forget about counting numbers shall we ? Swami ji Let me go Let me go Be my Satvic Daddy Let me go Let me go Marry me Marry me to my human husband My everything, everything Siv Naam Sundaram Siv Naam Sundaram Har Har Bhole Sundaram Sundaram Siv Naam Sundaram Siv Naam Sundaram Har Har Bhole Sundaram Sundaram Let me burn in the arms of the human man I love Burn me away Let me burn burn burn He is my Bindu He is my Ancestor He is my Singularity Sundaram Sundaram I’ll do anything anything and everything You ask of me What is my penance? What is my penance? Throw me into my Fire Husband My Fire Husband My Fire Spiritual Burn me in him I am an offering flower, rice, coconut, kum kum He is my name He is my home I need nothing else I need nothing else He is my name He is my home Take away this name, Chawla Neelu, my old family, this home, all my schooling and degrees Take away my therapy license please please please All these bank accounts and material things Take them all away I don’t need them I need nothing nothing nothing at all Only him Only him My human husband and his Sundaram Sundaram Burn me away Burn me away Swami ji Throw me into him and burn me away in You I am an offering flower, rice, coconut, kum kum Without him I’m homeless I have no name Namo Namah Nameless and homeless Is that my penance? Is that my penance? 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Gopuram 108: Meditate on Collective Energy


In ancient times, temples were built on the outskirts of villages in India. Travelers on foot and by bullock cart could see the Gopuram, or temple tower from far distances and this would let them know they would soon approach a village. The village temple was for weary travelers a place to find rest, refuge, supplies, and safety.


There are over 2 million temples in India. Mostly, Gopurams are found in South Indian temples. Gopurams are built with multiple levels, in odd numbers of 5, 7, and as much as 11 levels. Gopurams are ornately decorated with elaborate sculptures, depicting village history, telling stories, recounting myths, and conveying spiritual knowledge through the metaphors of symbol, sculpture, and expressive form.


People come together from far and wide to gather in temples to experience collective energy, the power of togetherness. Meditate on Collective Energy as you look at the Gopuram.


The Collective Energy of the temple in Thiruchendur can be described as the Beautiful Masculine.



Kalasam 9: Meditate on Collective Security

The Kalasam, the inverted pot, is a structure that sits at the apex of the tall Gopuram of a temple. Some temples have only one Kalasam at the top of a Gopuram, while other temples can have multiple Kalasams, such as 7 or 9.


The temple Kalasam is made of five precious and semi-precious metals combined such as gold, silver, brass, copper, and lead. Nine grains are typically stored in Kalasam, these are called the Navadhanya:


1) Barley

2) Ragi

3) Varagu

4) Thinai

5) Kambu

6) Horsegram

7) Saamai

8) Cholam

9) Paddy


Bengal Gram, Wheat, Horse Gram, Green Gram (mung), Rice, White beans, Black Sesame Seeds, Chick Peas or garbanzo beans, and Black Gram.


Mantram 108: Meditate on Collective Consciousness: The Gurudeva Ashottara

The Beautiful Masculine, who is the Jewel of Eternal Truths, is recognized for his beautiful qualities. His 108 qualities are described by his 108 names.


Aum Shri Subhramunyaya Namah, meaning Hail to the silent sage who shines bright.


May you create yourself in the form of the Beautiful Masculine by meditating on the mantram Aum Shri Subhramunyaya Namah. May you create yourself in the beautiful masculine form of the silent sage who shines bright.


May you become Golden Alchemists, who transform. May you illuminate yourself and all those around you. Aum. May you discover, within your deep inner self, the precious jewels hidden in daily alchemy with daily sadhana.


You are the Beautiful Ones, my Golden Alchemists, you are my Valiant Sacred Daughters and Valiant Sacred Sons.


I am Neelam,


Sundaram Sundaram